Leah O'Donovan

Day 2 kind of sucked a bit too but not until about 6.00 last night. That’s when I started to really have a hard time. That’s my normal relaxation time. I sit in front of the telly smoking several cigarettes waiting for Tim to come home. Even with a lozenge in my mouth I was having a pretty difficult time. I was almost on the verge of tears at one point so I just looked at my pen (fake cigarette for hand-to-mouth purposes) and said out loud ‘geez nicotine does funny things to you.’ Then Tim came home, I got a nice hug and we went and got a Subway sandwich and I was fine.

This morning started off fine but then I got to work. I am very tired for some reason this morning and it was really getting me down in the last hour. I think I wanted a cigarette or maybe I was just tired. I couldn’t really tell but I didn’t like the way I felt. To help matters I fixed myself a cup of tea and had a gingery Cornish biscuit (aka cookie). I think that helped. Hey, a little sugar here and there isn’t going to hurt.

I’m now downing a bottle of water as quickly as possible because it’s time for my next lozenge. The only thing that kind of sucks about the lozenges is you can’t eat or drink while sucking on one because it may block some of the nicotine absorption. I wouldn’t mind so much but this morning I had to stare at my ready-to-eat piece of toast while I finished the lozenge. I also can’t stay hydrated with the water while sucking on a lozenge so I need to drink up. All in all, today kind of sucks but I’m getting through it.