Tonight was a repeat of my session a couple of weeks ago: 3 x 1.5 miles at 10k pace of 8:46-8:26 per mile with .25 jog recoveries and a mile warm up and cool down. I think I’m still very tired from Sunday’s 19 miler. Tonight was quite difficult and I’m absolutely exhausted right now. I feel as though I could sleep for 12 hours or more. I am honestly starting to have doubts about completing this marathon. I’m not seeking sympathy or seeking “you can do it” from people; I’m simply saying I’m having serious doubts. I am hoping these pass because I am not a quitter. I do not want to quit but, damn it, I’m tired, dog tired.
I’d planned on adjusting the schedule this week to account for tiredness anyway. My normal Friday evening driving lesson is off for this week so instead of my usual Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday runs, rest Friday, run four easy miles Saturday, I’m throwing out Saturday’s run. I was going to run tonight and tomorrow, rest Thursday, run Friday, rest Saturday. Because of how tired I am, though, and the fact that I have to help with a mind-numbingly boring work task tomorrow that may not let me leave as early as I normally like, I’m resting tomorrow. I’ll run Thursday and Friday and rest Saturday. It’s another 19 miler on Sunday. I need to ensure I’m rested enough to do it.